Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning.
After much pondering, I’ve decided to close the Insightings blog for now. The main reason is that if I don’t, I’ll keep expending energy on thinking I should write something, and I’m trying to get rid of any unnecessary shoulds in my life. Because, to be honest, it’s not like I’ve been putting a lot of energy into actually writing the blog during the past few months or years.
This blog has served an important purpose, though. For the few years when I did post regularly, I had a platform to wonder at the world from a perspective that was purely my own. I had a chance to hone my blogging voice and work on feeling all right with sharing things about my life and my thoughts.
I also had a chance to figure out why I write in the first place: is it for my own benefit or that of someone else. I’ve had the good fortune of having some wonderful people comment on my posts, although the majority of my posts have gone uncommented. I’ve done major internal work on the whole “how could I ever have something original to say when everything has already been said so many times” issue, and that work is far from over. For now, though, the Insightings blog has run its course as the platform for that work.
That’s because another reason to close this blog is that I’ve finally gathered enough courage to start blogging in my native Finnish. Having done my high school and most of my university studies in English, there was a time when I’d only ever write in Finnish if I was journaling. I still use English daily when I read books and blogs, do releasing work with the Sedona method, or talk with my friends. However, the barrier of writing in Finnish has been steadily lowering.
I suppose writing in a foreign, albeit familiar, language has served as a way to distance myself from my text and my readers. Now, with enough practice under my belt from this blog, I finally feel secure enough to write about the internal workings of my mind and soul in a language anyone from my social circle can understand. Furthermore, I’ve admitted to myself that even though I’m still fascinated by learning, communication, Shiva Nata and all that jazz, my current interests revolve around personal growth and self-work. And if I want to blog about those topics and my personal process, writing in Finnish creates a sense of authenticity and honesty (see: years of journaling in Finnish) that benefits both me and anyone who might find my texts helpful.
Another reason to switch to writing in Finnish is that the personal growth blogging scene in Finnish is, shall we say, underdeveloped when compared to the English one. I genuinely want to help people see that yes, there are people who struggle with these issues and yes, there are ways to get around the hard parts. I want to help people feel more at home with themselves – the name of my blog, Lupa olla minä, translates to “Permission to be me.” By making that process visible in Finnish, I might be able to help someone who doesn’t read English but needs to find concepts and resources for self-work.
I will leave the archives of my blog online for as long as WordPress will allow them there. For now, though, I won’t be posting any new content. Feel free to comment on the posts, however, and if you want to contact me about the topics I’ve covered you can do that through the comments as well.
Thank you ever so much for being with me on this part of the journey. This will forever be my first blog, and you guys will forever be my first audience. Thank you. ❤
Wishing you all a lifetime of spectacular insightings,